Im not avoiding you recently & of course I still love you. I really do. Yes, you did cry last night, what about me? I did cry too. Do you know I was so reluctant to open ur replies yst? Iwas so afraid you might send one msg saying 'let's break'. One more day to 3rd month, yet we're still quarrelling over small matters. I wonder when will all these quarrellings end. Or maybe I should say, the quarrels we had were all caused by my jealousy & my stupid thinking & me not giving in to you. But I alr tried to change, I chose not to spend more time with you. I know Im always the one who cant chat on phone, cant go home late, cant go out during the weekends. But you thought I want all these? No, I dont. I said so many times sorry yst night is becos I really afraid you might be angry & not understand my situation & thought that you might think I nidda hang is not because I have reasons & it's me who chose not to chat. But I really didnt expect to received those vulgarities from you. You kept saying maybe you're not the one for me cause you always make me sad. But Im also always making you unhappy. I know Jarrold's sufferring alot now, I dont wish we will be repeating the same mistake like them & Neither of the mistakes we did in the past. I cried myself to slp yst, you wouldnt know too. You always said I dont care about you. But I alr tried my very best to change & stuffs. but you always find me doing the same wrong old things. Then you got think about my feelings? When I tried my very best, yet Im still making the old mistakes again & again. I alr tried my very best to balance everything in life. But everyone's like against me. I really dunno what else to do. I just hope we wont be quarrelling over small matters in the future & we can be tgt for long. & I really really really love you, stop having doubts for the love I have for you can? Really. & stop saying I will regret.